When Sandra and Kelly approached me about writing a weekly single mom column my first thought was - Me? No Way! I thought I was the last person that should be writing this! It was a moment of fear - fear that I didn't have anything to say, fear that no one would listen to me, fear of rejection, fear of being laughed at, fear of opening up and letting myself become vulnerable. It was a fear of being 'real' and admitting that even as a Christian I still struggle in life, especially as a single mom.
As I sat there in that moment of fear some very wise words popped into my head. Some people may argue that an eight year old child can be wise but I will never forget the words my son said to me one day. We were sitting outside & he had this new skateboard. Some other 'big' kids were doing lots of cool tricks on their skateboards and Caleb says to me, "you know what mom, we all need to just face our fears". I looked at him, smiled and said, "Caleb you are right". He then faced his fears of riding that skateboard and learning some tricks (of course as a parent I would of been perfectly content if he had NOT faced his fears...lol) and now he is pretty good at it.
My son's little voice kept playing over and over in my head and it was those words that made me realize I can do this. I can face my fears. I keep thinking what's the worst that can happen anyways? The worst that could happen would be that I am a total flop at writing a weekly column and I'm asked to stop writing. And instead of thinking about the worst I'm focusing on the best situation instead. I've always had a heart for single moms, I've always wanted to share my voice about situations/struggles that single moms go through so now I've been given my opportunity.
I've asked God to see me through this and to help me face my fears of being 'real'. I'm believing that God is going to use me to reach other women. Even if I can help one single mom through my words then it will have been well worth facing my fears. Even when we think that our lives are a mess and that we are the last person that should be doing something, God can still use us! In fact, it's usually the times that we think we can't be used that God is most likely to use us!
Next week I'll be sharing my testimony with you so that you can hear a little about me and how I became a Christian. Until then, have a blessed week!
Source: Women by Grace
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